When it rains…

Sometimes, it seems like your life changes direction.  It’s been a week like that.

This week, after saying goodbye to Mocha, we’ve accepted that our business, a start-up and a dream which began three years ago, is not going to work.  We’ve been fighting for it for a long time, and finally, it’s time to let it go.

Then Sweetie’s computer stopped booting up, so we’re using my old one.

I hope that’s all that dies for a good long while. We’re starting to call this the Week of Demise.

With the business failure, that means bankruptcy for us.  We’ve never gone bankrupt before, and I suspect it’s going to be a test.

Time to bring out our book of healing mantras.  They’re so useful.  Sometimes I find myself thinking of something, or a person who created a barrier for us, and I’ll feel angry at that person (as though, if that person hadn’t existed, our business would have survived.)  I know these are emotions that need to be processed, and ultimately released, and I’m surprised to find the mantras so helpful.

A year ago, I wasn’t even into meditation.

At some point, you have to look at your life and ask, “Did I do my best?  Am I a good person?  Do I try to help every day?  Do I appreciate what I have?” and the toughie: “Have I learned?”

This is how we stay centered.  I know we’re not the only people going through something like this right now.

Rain does have a way of bringing the spring flowers up.

2 thoughts on “When it rains…

  1. Funny how things — good and bad — come in lumps like that.

    Sorry to hear about the new troubles. I’ve had those kinds of computer troubles more times than I care to remember. It’s good to at least have a fall back computer. (I have a netbook that serves the same purpose.) The computer not booting up could be as easy (and cheap) as needing a new power supply or as bad as a corrupt hard drive or bad motherboard. (Been there, had all of those. LOL) Hopefully for you guys, it’s something easy to fix.

    RE: bankruptcy, I’ve been there, too. It’s tough, but it is really cathartic if you let it be. Once you get past the inevitable sense of failure (I never even found out about my brother’s bankruptcy until I mentioned my own because he was ashamed of it), you’ll feel a lot lighter than maybe you have been while struggling to make things work when they just aren’t. But I’m sending you both lots of love and support during the process. ♥


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