Sometimes, it seems like your life changes direction. It’s been a week like that.
This week, after saying goodbye to Mocha, we’ve accepted that our business, a start-up and a dream which began three years ago, is not going to work. We’ve been fighting for it for a long time, and finally, it’s time to let it go.
Then Sweetie’s computer stopped booting up, so we’re using my old one.
I hope that’s all that dies for a good long while. We’re starting to call this the Week of Demise.
With the business failure, that means bankruptcy for us. We’ve never gone bankrupt before, and I suspect it’s going to be a test.
Time to bring out our book of healing mantras. They’re so useful. Sometimes I find myself thinking of something, or a person who created a barrier for us, and I’ll feel angry at that person (as though, if that person hadn’t existed, our business would have survived.) I know these are emotions that need to be processed, and ultimately released, and I’m surprised to find the mantras so helpful.
A year ago, I wasn’t even into meditation.
At some point, you have to look at your life and ask, “Did I do my best? Am I a good person? Do I try to help every day? Do I appreciate what I have?” and the toughie: “Have I learned?”
This is how we stay centered. I know we’re not the only people going through something like this right now.
Rain does have a way of bringing the spring flowers up.