Manifestation can be such a slow process.  It’s not something that happens from sheer stubborn perseverance either, although that can be part of it.  In my experience, things which require an enormous amount of energy to create, require a comparable amount of energy to maintain.  Business, jobs, lifestyles, relationships and friendships all can reflect what you’re bringing into your life.

And a lot of what we bring into our life is habit, reflex.  Which is why it’s important to get yourself out of ingrained habits, even / especially the comfortable ones, if you want to change things.

I’ve noticed in my life a great movement in the energy of my life every time I physically move apartments.  Sometimes we hang on to who we were when we’re still living in the place we were when we were who we were… if that makes sense.

I’m not the only one who’s noticed this:  Cesar Milan, the dude from the Dog Whisperer show, has mentioned a few times that the best time to break inappropriate habits in your dogs is when you move.  It’s because the behaviour habits haven’t been established in the new place yet, so you can take advantage of that and the dogs are more open to getting into new behaviour habits right when they move.  Housebreaking issues?  Start retraining earnestly when you move.  Dog bullying the cats?  New house, new rule:  dogs are now nice to cats.

What’s weirdly tempting is the powerful urge to re-establish these old patterns in the new house, to make the new house feel like home… this is what I’m noticing right now, as I work to change my own patterns.  I see this opportunity to let habits go, and I observe part of my mind struggling to reassert old thinking habits, despite my intentions to change them.  I recognize how familiar they are, and how *normal* and comfortable it would feel to slip back into old, needless worries.

I think this all has to do with moving the energy in your life.  When you pack everything up, handle every object in your life, put energy into physically moving it, you’re doing something to change your life.  I think that’s where God helps those who help themselves, comes from.

I’m finding my fear habits to actually be really tricky.  I can feel the old habit of worrying about money, starvation and hypothermia to struggle to reassert itself.  Honestly, maybe it’s a past life thing.  What’s neat is that while I work with the Mantra Om Shrim Maha Lakshmiyei Swaha, to shift my energy patterns from fear and expectation of lack to trust and welcoming abundance, I’m really noticing myself reacting to the energy this mantra invokes.

Often, while quietly chanting my mantra on my way to work, I’ll notice a discomfort, almost like fear.  It’s so weird, why would I be afraid of abundance, right?  It’s not the abundance itself, I think it’s the fear of what I would suddenly *owe* others, if I had abundant resources.  It’s a strange conflict because part of why I’m seeking abundance is so that I CAN share with others, support local business, use dollars to do good.  Others have used their dollars to help me, and I’m going to pay it forward.

George says:

You know (dear), we’re trying to help you.  (Showing me blocking psychic input right now with TV at night, which I’ve been doing since I moved.)

Okay, I understand how important it is.  I guess I still don’t understand how meditation can seem like such an effort when it’s what I need to recharge.

It’s what you bring to it, when you approach meditation as a friend, you relate to the experience as a friend.  Or a teacher.  Or your mother.  (Shows me the buddhist monk talking about how anyone and everyone in your life could have been and probably was your own kind mother in a past life.  This is how you can influence your perception of people, raise your awareness above the immediate circumstance, and so how you affect your experience of day to day life – you change your perception of the experience by putting it in a different context.  As with people, so you bring the same thing to experiences like meditation. )  When you see it as work, it will be work.  When you expect a struggle, it will be a struggle. 

I suggest you decide that meditation is easy.

Huh.  How about that.

Well, I did my best there to translate a knowledge drop, but it’s one of those things I need to sit with for a bit to incorporate.  Any questions anyone?  Questions help facilitate the conversation, and sometimes when I’m in a receptive state, the part of my brain that thinks to ask questions shuts down…  so your questions are very welcome.