It has taken me all week to write this entry. Know that when I say, “last night” or “yesterday” I mean last Sunday. Twice I’ve gotten up at 5am to work on it again. For me, Biggie communicates with clarity and precision, yet he talks about ideas that are complex and have a wider scope than anything I’ve covered before. It’s very important to everyone that we communicate these ideas as clearly and completely as possible, so it’s taken some time, and I hope I got it right.
I hope you enjoy this entry.
It’s been a fascinating new year thus far. As you know, Sweetie & I have been manifesting a few things in our life, the most important two things is manifesting new and fulfilling sources of income, and bringing a new(er) car into our life.
Here’s the car we currently own:
Actually, this is what we were driving two years ago. The body is considerably more rusty now, it’s dented in the front from a minor fender-bender (see blog post entitled Exit Point) the rear wiper is broken, the left turn signal is broken, the windows won’t roll down, the doors won’t unlock (so we never lock them) something loud rattles whenever we go over a bump and there’s this big scorch mark across the top of the hood.
Really, it’d take a whole page to describe everything that’s messed up about this car. Even so, it was given to us by friends out of love, in a time of great need, and so we named it Karma Car.
Karma Car had a stroke yesterday. We were out with a friend hiking through the off-trail beaches deep in the BC rainforest (awesome). We hiked around for hours, we found a swimming hole warm enough to take a dip in, and we returned to our parked car tired and deeply relaxed… that is, until we tried to get home. First she coughed, then she shuddered, then she refused to accelerate. As we began to climb a hill, she began to lurch, jerkily, and my adrenaline shot up. I popped the clutch into neutral, rolled her backwards on to the shoulder and decided to let the car warm up completely before trying anything else.
I have to give her credit, the car did make it the 100 km home. Apparently it doesn’t like second gear anymore, and it doesn’t like going uphill. It seems as though it’s time to replace the clutch, which brought us to a sticking point: do we want to put any more money into this car, or do we want to go car-free and save for a better one?
Here is the car I’m asking for:
It’s a Subaru wagon, and a pretty recent model. Right now, the path from where we are now, to this car, is rather unclear. These beauties go for $20,000 second hand. But I’ll tell ya, Sweetie & I have created more things in our life than a single vehicle.
What’s funny is that my energy is still aligned with old cars – as I was looking for a photo of a Subaru, every time I found one that I thought was nice, the description said the make was the 1990s! If I’m attracted to and picturing a car from the 90s, I’ll get yet another old car from the 90s.
I’ll tell you why I need and want a new(er) car: I live in a rural, isolated area, two hours and a mountain pass away from the nearest Starbucks. I like it that way… but. We’re also two hours and a mountain pass away from the nearest veterinarian. We live in an incredible area, and we’re totally isolated in the winter time. In the summer, the beaches we can reach depend upon the condition and capabilities of the vehicle we drive. For winter mountain driving and summer dirt-road exploring, I need an all-wheel drive.
You know what’s neat? As I write this entry, it’s like I can hear this inner critic, shaming me for wanting a car like this. Cars, as Biggie pointed out, are status symbols, and in a way the car we choose to drive is a reflection of ourselves. What are we saying?
How do we judge others, when we see their vehicles?
As a little aside, this is exactly why incorporating a bit of Buddhist mindful thinking practice into our lives is very useful – it allows you to observe a thought, rather than believing that thought is *you*.
Anyway, Biggie, you were going to say something?
You were going to talk about takin’ care of your paper! (Shakes head, like, damn I don’t know how you get anything done / teasing gesture.)
Oh yeah, the whole point of this entry! So yeah, how do we get from our Karma Car to a super Subaru? Well, obviously, we have to save some money, and we do that by not repairing Karma Car, by selling her to whoever wants to take her on, biking around for a while and we save the money we usually spend on gas and car insurance, along with creating new streams of revenue into our lives.
Last night we were watching a documentary about Biggie, called “Bigger than Life” which Biggie seemed pretty cool with – he didn’t chime in with any extra details or anything, he just, it’s like he watched our thoughts just to make sure we didn’t pick up any misconceptions or draw any false conclusions based on what we saw. He’s nodding.
In the movie, we were surprised and delighted to see a very young Sean (aka P. Diddy) by Biggie’s side almost constantly in the recording studios. He looked so young! Then we realized that Biggie himself was so damn young at the time – he died at 24. Just twenty-four years of age. It’s so strange, because some of us don’t even consider 24 to be grown up, yet there’s no question of Biggie’s status. Biggie came into life with the intellect and energy of a pragmatic, charismatic, powerful leader.
So here’s Biggie, talking about manifestation.
Here’s what I’m sayin’. You got to respect your paper, your money. You got to love it like you love yourself (shows me the connection between ourselves, god, all creation, manifestation and infinite possibility)
That’s part of the beauty of (this existence, life on earth) is the (supposed limitations, the illusion of limitation) Your reality is all about what you believe to be true.
See, I thought I was (a badass? It’s like he’s showing me the boss of a crime ring, but he’s removing the actual crime, so all that’s left is this image, this projection of himself as this badass no one would fuck with. This is part of the image he projected) because I believed this is how I had to be, it was part of the story I tol’ myself about my success. I was gonna be the baddest motherfucker ever to hit the music industry .
So that’s who I became, that’s part of my story, part of my history now.
But that’s not who I am, do you see what I’m sayin?
Oh yes, I do remember now! It’s like Sweetie, collecting her “lost boys”. She had/has this group of friends that were so strange to me, socially, emotionally off-putting and strange. Some of them seemed dangerous to me. But Sweetie seemed to be able to tap into their harmless, vulnerable side, and never really saw or acknowledged their façade of danger.
Yes, the façade of danger. (He agrees).
(Me, showing Biggie that it wasn’t really a façade in the end, since he was shot.) Yes, but I was never afraid. Fear was (never part of my life/ allowed to take over his life / never defined his life because he controlled his thoughts, never allowed himself to get rattled. What he’s showing me is the same mindful thinking, it’s something he did intuitively which is tied to skills as a tribal leader in several of his past lives.)
I never lived my life in fear, I (had control of myself in a random, chaotic situation.) I never had a hate on for anybody, (shows me annoyances, dismissiveness, even lack of respect, but never hatred, never something that required energy to be invested.)
Me (shows Biggie part of his documentary where several of his friends at different times in the movie referred to him as big, fat and ugly.) (Biggie smiles says Naw, they were just kiddin around, and shows me the love heart connection between them all is quite strong.)
Huh, John’s here, and this is the first time he’s ever interrupted a conversation with another person. John’s showing me the people he saw too, like at some point you come to the conclusion that there are no dangerous people, only projections and dangerous situations. This is difficult to reconcile intellectually for me, because well, John was shot too.
Biggie, do you agree with what that guy in the documentary said, about people, some who are fresh out of jail and don’t give a crap about themselves, let alone see the value in the life of others – aren’t they dangerous, by their nature?
Biggie shows me the energy, at that point it’s like the person, the soul, the light of god is gone and there’s this energy just flowing through them. This is why some people describe this energy as evil, or a person being used or controlled by demons/the devil/evil forces. There is this phenomenon on this planet where this flow of negative energy builds up and rages around, like bad weather. This is why Biggie was the one to speak about the kids who were shot in the school in CT, he died in a similar way.
You know, Biggie, can I please address the weirdness around your death? It wasn’t weird, it was (evil – he didn’t say evil, that’s what he’s showing me. Is there a word I can use? Pointless. It was pointless, waste, garbage, sadness, tragedy, family crying, fans losing hope. It was needless injury to more than his body. Anger, acceptance, and he’s giving me this intense stare, like, do you get it?)
Listen to me. I am here to talk to you about your money, and I like you, so I’m goin’ to teach you. You (shows me the blog, the trail of energy out to thousands of others, it’s the visual for his teachings moving on to other people. He’s a bit impatient with me because I’m a slow transcriber. Slow down please and be patient.
I am a teacher, I am a leader, and my people live in poverty. (shacks built of metal siding all over the world)
The empowerment is enlightenment, education, emancipation from the slavery of the poverty and the prisons (shows me a cell block, and it’s surprisingly similar to the metal shacks, the density of the population, and the energy around them.)
(He shows me the energy as a flow of money that is easily distributed throughout the world. It’s a correction of the flow of resources, this is what he’s working on right now. Part of it is getting people like us, those of us in positions of privilege, educated, free of dictatorship, to open our potential. We need to have money flow into our lives, because we are the ones who will send it back out in right and equitable ways.)
Just be sure you do, (shows me the fear that sets in when you do have money. Shows me how afraid I was the moment the car started acting up – it’s like, when you get to a certain point, you become so focused on keeping what you have, that you restrict the flow of money through your life.)
It’s like (shows me the eagle feather – the magic of the eagle feather lasts a year. In the course of a year, you will be guided to pass the eagle feather on to another – this is how you keep the eagle medicine alive in your life. Biggie is just calling forward this lesson I learned earlier from another source; so it is with money. Truly, money is energy.)
Biggie shows me the flow of money through your life has an energy. This energy is associated with what you do to earn it, how you feel about what you do. People who do evil, who steal, harm, exploit, enslave, these people have a great river of fiscal energy flowing through them – he shows me this fiscal energy as having a charge, which is presenting as grey, which is the colour I see when something is sick, diseased or causing a deficit which will need to be balanced / healed. Some people call it karma.
Biggie shakes his head, Naw. (Shows me karma is for people who sit and meditate and do nothing.) (seriously Biggie? I’m trying to promote meditation on this blog) Whatever. You sittin. You’re waitin for the next thing to happen. This (the grey revenue stream) is active. It has a different charge. (It’s faster, it affects a different level of the soul.)
Karma (shows me the guru) is working over many lives – you and your sister, you’re working out karma. (oooookayyyy, we’ll come back to that later.) This, (negative actions consciously taken) generates more than passive karma, this (shows me an elastic band that is being pulled farther and farther, the tension building and building, the band never breaks, it stores more of this energy.) At some point, (the band and the energy is released) and this happens within that person’s lifetime.
This is why you hear that cliché, that rich people ain’t happy. These, (shows me the grey revenue stream) can never be happy, it is impossible. (Shows me icons like Donald Trump, Kevin O’Leary) they learnin’ the lessons of (grey revenue). That’s why they here. These are not evil people, they are (playing their roles, living their life plans.)
This, (yoikes, shows me a dictator in what looks like a prison camp. He has a family, he drives a nice car…) He is soul-less. (Shows me he’s empty. His revenue stream is so, it’s nauseating to behold.) These (shows me the association of slave owners in Jamacia, sugar plantations, how beautiful the island was, shows me Haiti, shows me the people there, how they had been abducted from their tribal homes and made to destroy this island through their labour, he shows me some women in particular who were very sad about it, how the destruction of this beautiful place compounded their sorrows. This overwhelming experience is connected to the grey revenue stream, to the people who orchestrate the whole thing – the plantations, the whole slavery industry. The sorrow of millions associated with the revenue stream generated over the hundreds of years the African people were seen as farm animals.
Shows me factory farm animals. This energy is different from slavery, shows me lab animals, okay Biggie this is an overwhelming collage of images here and the animal (shows me to backfill my heart connection from heaven, which allows me to calmly observe these images rather than close my heart to them.)
Shows me the exploitation of animals for food, medication and household products generates a revenue stream with yet another different type of grey energy, like a greenish-grey, green associated with nature, and this revenue colour showing me how it is flowing off the planet in all different places now. It’s like our planet and culture go through phases or almost like fashion trends of the type of grey revenue stream which is acceptable. We are in this planetary exploitation phase at the moment, with the old resonance of concentration camps and slavery/exploitation of people still existing in particular corners of the world.
How do you go in there and fix that? This is the suffering of you (kind-hearted, empathetic people on the planet in first world countries, who feel relatively powerless to change or affect the world on a scale that is required.)
You recognize your own (perceived) slavery is an illusion. (Shows me bills, woman weeping as she does her taxes.) You let it go, you find your power, do you understand?
He’s asking the readers if they understand. He’s saying he’ll continue the lesson in dreamtime of those who are struggling with finding financial freedom, You just have to ask nicely, I’ll hook you up (he indicates other teachers available on this topic, so it’s not necessarily Biggie himself who’d answer your questions. He smiles and looks tall. Yes he has this look where he seems to increase in height.
It’s really cool, how he expresses himself almost completely energetically. It makes for a challenging blog entry for me to write, because there’s this huge volume of information that comes through pretty quickly. Thanks for being patient Biggie.
You got to take care of your paper! (Shows me if you’re going to meditate, meditate with your bills and your wallet. Seriously Biggie? Your life is short, Biggie was always high energy in life, always a do-er, always, always working. I got a sneezing fit here.)
He shows me again, meditating with your bills and your wallet, shows me my cats, particularly Sunshine, sitting on my purse, our bills, telling us they’re “fixing” it. (Gives this respectful acknowledgement of Sunshine and Leo, they’re doing real work.)
You need to understand the flow of your stream, (it has an aura, what energy is your money?) You take care of your paper, like taking care of a plant. You look at it, you talk to it, you water it, you feed it once in a while, you change the pot so it’s got room to grow, most of all you love that plant. Nothing will grow your revenue stream like loving it, (shows me this high-pitched light from the heart connection charging the revenue stream, altering it. This is how you manifest, this is how you connect to the power of creation, through the heart – that is how we are all connected to each other.)
(Biggie shows the the Maharashi, the Beatle’s guru, and his connection with millions of people around the world. Shows me Kurt, and how Kurt’s money connection was the colour of his depression, his energy affected the whole experience.)
Who you are is going to be reflected in the flow of money in your life. That is why (your car) changes. (Vehicles are one way of showing ourselves and other people what our money looks like. Shows me the difference between a vehicle leased with anxiety, like trying to keep up appearances, versus a vehicle that is leased with joy and gratitude.)
Biggie, have I managed to get the point across here?
Yeah, (shows me the heart connection going all around the world from the Violence entry, the answer to violence and war is peace, and building this heart connection with each other all around the planet. He’s showing me this heart connection is associated with money too, (not exclusively, but) money is one of the easiest ways to reach and affect each other (shows me our own experience when we needed financial support while running our business, and how incredible it was to receive support from our family and friends. There’s a real heart connection there, it’s true.)
(Shows me you’ve got to take care of yourself first, you’ve got to love yourself enough to live a healthy life) There is no sense being poor in a rich country. What you do is recognize the availability of revenue in your life, you (build your positive relationship with that stream) you turn towards it you take it in. You do not (shows me Kurt and John, exhausted, depressed and feeling hermity with the strain of fame. It’s true, Biggie didn’t get worn down by fame in that way, and he shows me it was because he set his boundaries, he measured his energy, he embraced every aspect of his success including lawyers and bills. He measured his approach, he maintained this calm, measured concentration when building his revenue.
I keep hearing this line from the movie, “I didn’t want to be just another rapper on the street corner. So I did Juicy, Big Poppa, radio songs.” (his pop songs that took about 10% of his time when he wrote them and make up 80% of his revenue. They sold his records that contained the other 90% of his work.)
You go ahead, we can talk again. (Looks tall.)
(Here I took a break for a couple of days, and now it’s Jan 3rd, the day I’m going to post this, so I’ll check in with Biggie one more time.)
Hey Biggie, (really fast) Hey, do you get it? (Asking in response to me re-reading the entry this morning.)
Yeah, I think I do, and it’s sunk in more in the past couple of days.
Biggie, what can we say to help the people reading tap into that 10% of what they do that can earn them 80% of their revenue stream?
The importance is knowing you need that time, what are you gonna do with that time? (The time you have available when 10% of your work covers a large portion of your income. It allows you the time to put a great amount of time and work into something that doesn’t pay off financially as well, but energetically, spiritually, compassionately, righteously, what energy does it create?) Look at (the energy) of what you doin’. Look. Know that we are all of creation. (He says this tapping the table with his knuckles for emphasis, and here he reminds me of Bob Marley, talking in rhythm.) We are all of creation. So what you gonna create with your life?
Thank you Biggie, that did it.
Peace and love, (he’s tapping the peace sign to his chest, and he’s smirking because he’s teasing a bit too. He’s got this subtle, deadpan sense of humour sometimes, he’s teasing John for being a hippie, he’s amused by the juxtaposition of his own badass, gun-toting image over the hippie image, and he’s teasing us about being / becoming “business hippies”, which he KNOWS bugs me.) Gotta look at that, (reminder to all of us to examine the judgments we have that create blocks to the flow of money into our lives.)
Well, I hope this entry makes sense to people. I know I’m going to be re-reading it for quite a while.
Happy New Year!