This entry was written over the course of the past week and a half:
So, I gotta level with you, Erik. I’m a bit concerned that my personal blog may become “the Erik Show”, or that you guys are getting all my best stuff. And I haven’t really talked to anyone else in depth since we engaged. (he laughs at my choice of words – sorry sweetheart, I can’t marry you, I’d break too many hearts!)
*pause while I un-roll my eyes*
He asks me why I’m concerned about that, and points out that I’m intuitiely aligning myself with other people’s expectations, I’m hearing it when people are thinking “I wish she’s talk to John.”
You gotta bone up that psychic armour a bit more, that’s not shit you need to hear, and you need to listen to *this* (taps my chest)
Awesomely cheezy, yet profoundly true.
(he flashes back a “statement of the obvious” quip)
So like, what do you *want* to do?
I want to be happy. (mental check-mark because I *am* happy, I’m just declaring the intention to continue to make this my top priority) What makes me happy is walking in nature, talking with people (mediumship) writing things that bring joy and laughter to other people-
You totally broke my concentration. Oh yeah, and money makes me happy too. Increasing my income, continuing and expanding this economy of awesomeness!
Tell them about your rule –
Okay, well in general I only spend the money I earn as a psychic on things that make me happy, and I’m particularly joyful when I can do something like take one of Jamie’s teleclasses, or buy a cat tree for Sunshine (finally) from my friend’s pet store, or expand my business / blog in some way, like when I bought the domain names – it was quite inexpensive, but it was a real red-letter moment, you know?
It’s a great rule, and (shows me getting to a point where I can pay the water bill with the same love and appreciation that I pay my entrepreneurial friends. Shows me paying my ambulance bill with gratitude.)
Oh yeah, that’s actually something I *should* be grateful to pay. In BC, whenever you call an ambulance, you get a bill for $80. I’m not used to even seeing healthcare bills, having grown up in Ontario where the billing system is different.
But seriously, what am I bitching about it? It’s only $80. I can afford it, and wouldn’t it be much better if I paid it with gratitude, knowing I *can* afford it, and that I live in a part of the world where you can call for help if you’re very sick?
A few nights ago, Sweetie got a movie called “Across the Universe” released in 2007. The only description she gave me was “it has Beatle’s music”. Well, I thought “magical mystery tour” was as exciting as watching paint dry, so I didn’t have great expectations for this one.
Turns out through, it was a *really great* movie, beautifully filmed and the dance choreography was absolutely fantastic… yet it was desperately sad too.
John plunked his bony butt on the end of the bed when the movie began, not saying much. I would occasionally ask Sweetie about the songs – one was John’s, one was George’s etc. Finally I asked “Are these ALL Beatles songs?”
“Yes! Oh my god, I can’t believe you didn’t notice that!” Sweetie teased me. She also had told me it was all Beatles songs at one point, but I’d forgotten.
This exchange was quickly followed by John’s mock-horror, “Have I taught you nothing???”
Which brings me around, finally to the topic at hand: Our spirit friends and what they teach us.
Recently, Elisa posted on the Channeling Erik blog a new disclaimer reminding readers that Erik is only himself, not an all-knowing, all-seeing demi-god.
I appreciated it, because it echoes one of my favourite litanies:
Being dead does not make you right.
I think it’s important to honour your intuition on what is true, because truth (and spiritual truth in particular) is all about context. What is true for another may not be true for you; it may not mesh with your experience, it may not resonate or make sense to you, it may not describe a reality in which you wish to participate.
So you don’t ever have to believe anybody when they tell you how it is, because they’re just telling you how it is *for them*.
The cool thing is, by listening to other people, the alive ones and the dead ones, you can pick up a lot of different ideas, perspectives that will shift your kaleidoscope of truth.
(I’m hearing “Lucy in the sky with diamonds”) The girl with kaleidoscope eyes…
Erik & John (why not, right? I was trying to figure out which one of them was there, until I let myself realize it was both. Hi guys!)
Erik: The thing is, there is no one single “REAL” reality. It’s not your reality and everyone else is delusional if they don’t see shit your way.
John: Everyone’s delusional. (At some point) it was decided that delusion was a bad thing – (shows me dropping a ball, symbol of dropping judgment.) Are you ready to allow everyone around you to have their personal delusional reality?
Dissonance is what is creating this (Shows me refugees, looks like India, and I get the words “have / have nots”) These people have nothing because other people believe they are incorrect. That is all. Just, disparagement of what they believe.
What if people where just allowed to believe whatever in their hearts they know to be true?
Imagine, if instead of turning to Erik, or myself, you turned inward for truth?
Because there, my friends, is where you will ultimately find it.
Wow, John, thank you so much. This is a truth that rings true to my own heart, so I think I’m going to keep it, and incorporate it into my reality.
My truth about truth may not be your truth. What you decide to do, my dear friends, is up to you.
PS: I had to look up “dissonance” because it’s not in my usual vernacular. This is one of those cases where I get confirmation I’m channeling, because I didn’t actually understand what it meant until I finished the entry and looked it up. The definition made me smile; it’s so appropriate. It’s so John:
1. inharmonious or harsh sound; discord; cacophony.
a. a simultaneous combination of tones conventionally accepted as being in a state of unrest and needing completion.
b. an unresolved, discordant chord or interval. Compare consonance ( def 3 ) . See illus. under resolution.
3. disagreement or incongruity.
The definition of dissonance could double as a definition for our overlapping realities. Beautifully put, my friend.
I had to look up disparagement too. (John’s British vocabulary is fancier than my own.)
1. the act of disparaging
2. something that derogates or casts in a bad light, as a remark or censorious essay.
I think a good tip for learning to become a medium is to READ AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. Anything to build your “inner dictionary” will help the spirit friends bring it forward. I don’t use these words, but John could use them because I have encountered them in the past. I’m so grateful I just wrote them down as they came, because it’s expressed more beautifully than I could have done with my usual vernacular.