I don’t know *what* was up with the last month. I tell ya, I felt like there was never enough time in the day or week. I have a new project I’ve been wanting to launch, but I just haven’t had the energy, really, to get into it.
So maybe now is not the right time to do it. It’s summer, anyway. It’s time to just slow down and enjoy.
This morning, in the Joyful Telepathy group, I shared that I’d neglected my own “psychic hygiene” for the past couple of weeks. It’s silly, but when I’m tired and most *need* the benefits of meditation, yoga and clean diet, that’s when I’m more likely to just skip it – you know, because I’m *tired*. It turns into a bad cycle pretty quickly.
I’m just sharing to demonstrate that this whole “energy cleaning” thing never goes away. It can become habit, but it will always be important. It’s actually really interesting to me to discover how much I depend upon these routines to stay functional now – I simply couldn’t do this work without a good energetic hygiene. This week proved it.
When I do get down and out, I have discovered the Big Guns: Going into the ocean. There is something about going into the ocean that fixes everything. It’s better than reiki, better than yoga. I can understand now why thousands of people put surfing as their absolute top priority, and spend their lives travelling around to various surfing destinations and working whatever café job they can pick up. Live to surf. I get it; because when you’re in the ocean, nothing else matters. There is no future, no past, nothing but the water, the energy of the motion.
There is something energetic about my back: I have noticed that if I neglect a daily yoga practice, a pain will begin to build in my right hip. My chiropractor has given me a few exercises and has linked this to the misalignment of my left knee – the tightness in my right hip causes my left knee to overcompensate. It can become incapacitating if I ignore it.
However, if I have a good daily yoga practice, this pain will disappear. Makes sense, right? Yoga is good exercise, surely that’s all it is…
Except that should I neglect my yoga practice, and this pain has build up to an uncomfortable, stabbing insistence, all I have to do is walk into the ocean, and the pain is gone.
And it stays gone for at least a week.
Yesterday, I was too tired to play in the waves for more than a half hour, but I’m as pain-free as I have been on longer trips into the surf. It’s like magic, and it reminds me of reiki healing. This is how I know it’s energetic.
The thing about energetic burdens is you don’t always know they’re there until they’re gone.
Sweetie & I decided to sell this beautiful old desk we’d aquired from a woman who was a friend for a short while, but who suffered from intense paranoia and ended up pushing away or alienating all of her friends with false accusations of theft and betrayl. She left town just a year after she arrived.
This encounter was confusing and upsetting, but we kept the gift of the desk, because we needed it and it was beautiful.
Since we moved, the desk no longer suits our needs and we decided to sell it – and a strange thing happened: Sweetie and I began to have silly arguments about this desk.
It was almost like the desk didn’t want to be sold. We resisted taking pictures of it, resisted posting it, I snapped horribly at Sweetie when she interrupted my thoughts of posting it for sale. Even the people making offers seemed to want to complicate things, and were unusually demanding.
And then, we understood: this desk has Crazy Friend energy. Holy crap, we’d been living with the thing for 3 years and never cleansed it!
I smudged the piece (process described in the “personal Rituals” entry) and immediately it felt better. I didn’t want to send this desk to a new home with all that angry energy.
We noticed the difference immediately, now that the oppressive cloud had dispersed. I have cleansed our living space more times than I can count – how the hell has this desk hung on to that crap?
Well, patially I think it’s because I remember my friend whenever I look at it. We could have been re-intorducing that bad vibe every time we looked at that piece… which makes me look at the rest of my furniture differently.
I will cleanse every individual piece of furniture in my house this week, and we’ve decided to sell another piece that has some negative associations too.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned about furniture, it’s that you never have to be without something you need for very long. Sweetie and I gave away or sold almost all of our posessions in 2009 when we moved west, and we’ve never had to sit on the floor.
It’s funny, the little associations we have with our stuff that we might not notice. For instance, I hung on to a cutting board with bad memories for almost 10 years. It was a really nice cutting board with a drawer in it to store knives. I really loved it… except that my ex had burned it by carelessly placing a hot pot on it just a week after I’d brought it home! He scrubbed the scorch mark off of it, but it was never “new” again, and I didn’t realize it but every time I looked at that cutting board, I felt a little big angry.
And I looked at that thing every frigging day for almost 10 years. It wasn’t until I decided to let it go and *not* move it out west that I realized I wouldn’t have to feel a little bit angry every day anymore, because I wouldn’t be seeing it. I couldn’t believe I’d never noticed how I felt about that piece until I let it go.
Energy is a funny thing – it clings to objects, it gets reinforced by our associations, beliefs and memories. This can happen with things as small as an inherited piece of jewlery you feel guilty for never wearing, but you hang on to it for decades anyway – to as large as a whole house that you’re trying to sell and can’t seem to unload.
So how do you get rid of it? You recognize it, you say thank you, and you let it go.